This blog update is for grown folks. If discussing anything about being intimate makes you uncomfortable then STOP READING right now.
"No, there isn’t any sexy lingerie under this big t-shirt."
"Heels?-you betta get somewhere and SAT it down!"
"Sex?-didn’t we do that last week?"
"Candles?-I’ve been standing over that hot stove.”
This is my reality now. Ideas no longer come easy and making love is the last thing on my mind. Over the years, I desensitized myself to romance. I gorged myself of intimate moments that were design for husband and wife. Although I’m in an undefiled relationship, I have to make a conscious effort to be spontaneous, loving and fun.Yet, I was able to give freely while I was in sin. This is so unfair to my man who deserves my attention, affection and romance.
I struggled with this blog update. After writing three versions of it, I decided to be true to myself and write just the way I was feeling it. I couldn’t sugarcoat it out of fear of offending someone, being judged or revealing too much. I will admit I don’t believe it’s acceptable to have sex before marriage. Unfortunately, I believe one thing and did another. This is one of the reasons I felt the need to share this information. Read on…
Regardless of the reasons, I was promiscuous at an early age. Sex was a tool…a weapon…a way to control. I didn’t value IT or my body at all. And, what you don’t value, you won’t protect. I continuous gave my goodies to males other than my husband.
During those years, I learned I was very romantic. Romance came to me as naturally as breathing. Normally, anything that comes naturally comes effortlessly. You tend to give these things freely. It was nothing for me to convert my living room into a VIP section of a nightclub (lights and dance routine included). Once I decorated my bedroom to look like an island. I had the kiddie pool, sand and beach chairs. These are just a few ideas out of hundreds I brought to reality. I gave my time and talent to males that didn’t deserve or appreciate it. I gave until my well was dry.
Are you asking what is the point of this blog update? One, I want to remind you there is a lot of pain and consequences to face when you don't follow God's instructions-point blank! Two, we must be very careful NOT to give “friends” the benefits designed for a spouse. Lastly, we have to look past “The Right Now” to prepare for "The Right Time” with “The Right One…The Only One…OUR SPOUSE”!
In all things pray and seek the Lord. Allow Him to help you make decisions-not Kooley! These are just my thoughts, opinion and experiences.
